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olive. katsabido. hai. :">
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Ms. Kat and our '79 Bus this weekend, up in Palo Alto, CA.
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[23 Oct 2009|01:10am] |
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 Camping along the California coast. :)
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I miss you, and I love you Alexis.

I try so hard to make this pain concrete, but it eludes me. Perhaps akin to the same phantom pain that amputees experience. A remedy, they found, was a mirror placed strategically against the undamaged symmetrical part of the body that tricks the mind into thinking that you are complete. When it is, in fact just a mirror-image placebo. And that's good enough to temporarily thwart the pain of something that is not there. A pain of something that is vivid in your memory, that you want so badly to wake up from.

I wish I could look into a mirror and quantify the completeness of my life, but everyday is a struggle to find that empty spot that needs to be filled. The day is full of distractions, full of chatter with no meaning. A lot of times you succeed in playing through the motions that the 'real' world prescribes you, the routine that allows you to function outside of your mind. Disconnect me from the bullshit. What makes the pain worse is not just the past; the real pain lies in imagining a world without you in it. I miss you, and I love you, Alexis and Nika.
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[12 Oct 2005|09:06pm] |
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remember the time when email was still new, and someone would send an email to a bunch of friends... with personal messages at the end?
wala lang. late 90's, early 00's forgotten phenomenon.
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| for those who are bored silly.. |
[08 Oct 2005|12:00am] |
smashing pumpkins, siamese dream album. "silverfuck".
sit in a slightly reclined leather chair. crank up the volume. keep your arms palm faced up, open ended beside your body, close your eyes and let your thoughts and feelings course through your veins..
after all these years, i still don't understand how SP manages to do it. time after time after time, song after song after song..
( bang bang you're dead. )
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[29 Sep 2005|06:57pm] |
i'm one to stall and ponder, about the possibilities of better options and chances that tomorrow would bring. and i'm really glad that i waited and wondered, and took on the odds of good guys finishing last, because i've found what i've been waiting for.
and she's found me. :)
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[19 Sep 2005|12:36am] |
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( +2 )
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( hi denise! )
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